Sunday, January 23, 2011

Theme Song 2011

Freedom is acknowledging the mask you have on
And possessing the strength to take it off. 


"Hold Your Head Up" - Macklemore

Hold your head up, there's a light in the sky
I know you're fed up, but you must try to survive
Each moment's precious, don't let life pass you by
Keep focused, keep your eyes on the prize

A friend of mine once told me
We have many paths in this journey
They act in different directions
So when you question don't be worried
It's not a wrong one
Beauty can be found in all of them
You'll meet people whose paths intersect
But you don't know how long you'll walk with them
Cos the truth is, and it's so hard, but you'll never know
How long we'll continue with our loved ones down this rugged road
The path veers and it's clear that we must steer alone
I've learned if you can't hold on to that moment that exists--
Let it go
Cos freedom is god
Freedom is acknowledging the mask you have on
And possessing the strength to take it off
Freedom is accepting every step of the path
And when it's hard having faith in the ability to embrace that
That's where you are
And this is it
The same shit that we work towards, but go against in the same sense
My friend hit me to some game and truth unravelled, she said
"the brighter the light, the darker the shadow"
And since i'm on cliche terms, knowing is half the battle
But i don't know
So i just go with what was destined
Life can be a burden or a blessing
The choice is yours to be connected
It's there if you want it, you got it, now let it

Hold your head up, there's a light in the sky
I know you're fed up, but you must try to survive
Each moment's precious, don't let life pass you by
Keep focused, keep your eyes on the prize

I feel like i have nothing to give right now
This is my trial, tribulations, and it must go down
But where's the up?
I'm stuck with the broken smile
No jokin' now, wantin' to grab a swish and 

smoke this out
The moment of a man choosing what path i will go down
Do i give in, give up, or get up and live right now?
With a split gut pick myself up and spit my style
This is the only thing that can hold my ground
You're born into this world alone and alone you'll go out
All i have is myself and everyone else i doubt
You can only trust yourself and depend on the help of the pound
Inside of the chest that beats with the breath of the now
No sunshine when she's gone, i can only see clouds
No homies can hold me down, the spirit's testing me now
But i can withstand this world, but it seems so foul
Flood of emotions, it's like i'm being held down to drown
Hell's right around the corner, but i can turn it around
You always have a choice, no matter the situation you're not bound
To nothing, no one, you're chosen for this job
This is your life, you can't escape this bitch when it's hard
Just know that it passes, but you'll collect scars
They never go away, but they will make you who you are
This is a beautiful struggle, i share it in song cos
I can't control this, remember: the moment's beyond us

Hold your head up, there's a light in the sky
I know you're fed up, but you must try to survive
Each moment's precious, don't let life pass you by
Keep focused, keep your eyes on the prize
And all my people say whoa.. whoa.. yeah
And all my people say whoa.. whoa..
C'mon
Hold your head up, there's a light in the sky
I know you're fed up, but you must try to survive
Each moment's precious, don't let life pass you by
Keep focused, keep your eyes on the prize
[one more time]
Hold your head up, there's a light in the sky
I know you're fed up, but you must try to survive
Each moment's precious, don't let life pass you by
Keep focused, keep your eyes on the prize

Saturday, January 22, 2011

"I learned from my teachers but became through my music" - Macklemore

On the first day of 6th grade, my music teacher passed out a piece of paper, a sort of syllabus, with the following quote:

I would teach
children music,
physics, and
philosophy, but
most importantly,
music, for in the
patterns of music
and all the arts are
the keys of learning.
-Plato

I have a hard time explaining what music means to me; when asked, I often offer Plato's words. My teacher was incredible; he still is. He taught that though one might not enjoy every type of music, one must learn to appreciate all types of music, otherwise one can never truly understand or love it. I stand behind this philosophy. I played clarinet in band and jazz band and sang in choir for the next four years, which included trips to Hawaii and Anaheim for performances, an award-winning, goose-bump-giving choir performance of Queen's "Bohemian Rhapsody," a recorded duet of Mariah Carey's "Can't take that away" with my then-best friend, as well as singing in the memorial service of a close friend and previous music member whom I dearly miss. Though I eventually quit band and choir, music continued to govern my life, a constant, if invisible, influence. I switched from performer to full-time listener-critic-enthusiast. Saving me, driving me, inspiring me, I am as obsessed with music as ever. Here are some tunes of choice, chosen either for their lyrics, beat, melody, performance (i.e. emotion, dancing), or some combination thereof. Some are old, some new. Some are just fun. If you don't feel like sifting through, may I request that you listen to #1. for his lyrics and story, and to #9 for his moving performance. **Disclaimer: I listen to EVERYTHING.

In no particular order:
1. Macklemore - "The Town"
2. The Avett Brothers - "I and Love and You" 
3. Stromae - "Alors On Danse"
4. Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros - "Home"
5. Local Natives - "Wide Eyes" 
6. D-sisive - "I Love A Girl" (Grizzly Bear:Hijacked Remix)
7. Adele - "Hometown Glory" 
8. Kalyanji Anandji - "My Guru" 
9. Jeff Buckley - "Hallelujah"
10. Califone - "1928"
11. Paul Kalkbrenner - "Aaron" 
12. Manolo Garcia - "Pajaros de Barro" 
13. Azad - "Alles Wird Gut"
14. Jack Johnson & Ben Harper - "High Tide or Low Tide" 
15. Federico Aubele - "Postales"
16. Hilltop Hoods - "Recapturing the Vibe Restrung" 
17. Absolute Beginner - "Füchse" 
18. Blumentopf - "Block und Bleistift" 
19. SOJA - "You don't know me"
20. Asa - "Jailer"





Saturday, January 15, 2011

Reading List

As those of you who know me know, I'm a total closet philosopher. My obsession with philosophy, religion, nature, culture, has not gone on pause for a year while I'm here in Austria. Before leaving i sent myself two boxes of 25 books. My mission is to finish them before I leave. Seeing as how I keep buying new books, the list has fluxed to 29. Here it is.
  1. The Courage to Create - Rollo May
  2. The Wave: In Pursuit of the Rogues, Freaks and Giants of the Ocean - Susan Casey
  3. On the Road - Jack Kerouac
  4. Eat, Pray, Love - Elizabeth Gilbert
  5. It's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be - Paul Arden
  6. What the Dog Saw - Malcom Gladwell
  7. Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance - Robert Pirsig
  8. The Secret - Rhonda Byrne
  9. SAVOR - Thich Nhat Hanh
  10. How it is - V.F. Cordova
  11. Dark Green Religion - Bron Taylor
  12. Global Shift: How a new worldview is transforming humanity - Edmund J. Bourne
  13. The Autobiography of St. Teresa of Avila 
  14. The Spell of the Sensuous - David Abram
  15. Human Experience: philosophy, neurosis, and the elements of everyday life - John Edward Russon
  16. Awareness: the key to living in balance - Osho  
  17. The heart of Dōgen's Shōbōgenzō - Dogen, Masao Abe, Norman Waddell
  18. The Present Age - Søren Kierkegaard  
  19. The Ethics of Ambiguity - Simone de Beauvoir 
  20. Landscapes of dissent: guerrilla poetry & public space- Jules Boykoff and Kaia Sand
  21. The Road Less Travelled - M. Scott Peck
  22. The Upanishads - Juan Mascaró 
  23. Why I am so Wise - Friedrich Nietzsche 
  24. Radical Hope - Jonathan Lear
  25. The Way of the Buddha: The Illustrated Dhammapada - Rubin Museum of Art, F. Max Muller
  26. TAKU - Karen Bell and Janet Shelfer 
  27. The Bhagavad Gita - Juan Mascaró, Simon Brodbeck
  28. Salzburg für Anfänger - Herbert Rosendorfer
  29. Der Teufel von Mailand - Martin Suter
Last Read: #2, The Wave... by Susan Casey. HIGHLY recommended. Gave me goose bumps, made me gasp, and made me want to keep the ocean close. 
Now Reading: # 3, On The Road - Jack Kerouac.

'Nen guten Rutsch ins neue Jahr...

...Or in other words, Happy New Year! Apologies for the lack in updates. Busy busy busy. My first few months of teaching English have been a very good, impressionable, learning experience. I work at two Gymnasien or combination middle/high schools, outside of Salzburg. Key word- OUTSIDE of- or in German, auf dem Land. One is in Seekirchen am Wallersee, the other in Straßwalchen. The prior is the oldest Austrian settlement still in existence. The one involves an hour-long walk-bus-train commute, the other one an hour and a half, door-to-door. Needless to say, on days when school starts at 7:30, I hate life. On the positive side, the commute is through rolling, story-book-green hills (white with snow in the winter), with views of cows, llamas, deer and brown-black-white peaky mountains. The combination of schools culminates in me teaching 26 different classes in grades 6-12, working with 13 different teachers directly. I've managed to juggle it so far, though it gets overwhelming at times. I do love the work.
Some topics I've done (by choice, or required):
  • "Californication" by RHCP (commentary on Hollywood and its effects on the earth)
  • Mass Tourism/Environmental Effects
  • Party-Planning
  • Consumerism
  • World of Work
  • Hobbies
  • Holidays
  • Media/Censorship/WikiLeaks
  • Alcohol
  • Teen Issues US
  • Outerspace
  • Celebrities
  • Electronic Tagging
  • Intro to Global Warming 
The two most significant things I have learned are FLEXIBILITY and CREATIVITY. Not all kids learn the same way, so if one doesn't understand it this way, then you must try to explain it that way. And if he/she still doesn't get it, you need to use different words. Or talk slower. Or speak more clearly. Or translate. Or laugh it off. Humor is probably the third most-useful tool in the classroom after flexibility and creativity. Moreover, not all teachers teach the same way- which in my case causes more difficulty, because 13 teachers want it 13 different ways, when 1) I want to do it my way, and 2) It is hard to remember who wants what style. Keeps me on my toes. Dynamic and changing, the work itself suits me. It's exciting. I do not think I want to be a high school teacher. And I will never live so far from my workplace again. But for now I am thankful for the opportunity, learning what I can, and enjoying the ride.